The Hurtful Pattern of My Life

I am expecting the self-realization of harm, guilt and hypocrisy to occur in a person who has repeatedly proven herself incapable of it.

I am hoping to see regret pierce the fog of deceit and flood her life so she experiences my suffering as I do.

I am betting on some sense of karmic justice to prevail in her reality when I know this world is an irrational and grossly unfair one.

I am not acting upon my instinct to expose her toxic character to the world because I am afraid of becoming her in the process.

I am continuing to color my sense of self-worth with her insincerity and lack of commitment.

I know this pattern well.

And now I just need to never let it repeat again.